I’m starving for intimacy
I just want you next to me
Inside of me
All over me
Come be all over me baby
Our love plays like a movie in my head
We have more Oscar worthy moments
Than the notebook
I’m sorry for the ways I mistook
You held your tongue
To spare my heart
I’m so sorry
Did I push you to her?
When my love turned cold
I’m so sorry for the abrupt roughness
The fake toughness
When I’m really just screaming out
PLEASE LOVE ME
I see you in my sleep
So I try to stay up all night
You can’t even imagine how many demons I’m fighting
I’m barely surviving
I need your strength
I need you
Cuz I can’t be the queen
And the king too
I need you
I’m tired of holding myself
I can’t trust these people to see me weak
I need protection
Please come back to me
I don’t want to manipulate you with sweet words
Sweet nothing words
But this is how I share my love
I’m so tired of apologizing for that
You were so angry how I painted the picture of how you broke me
But I was too afraid to admit how you restored me
How you healed me baby
You HEALED ME.
You fixed my heart.
Set it back in place from where it had been so broken and twisted and mangled
Your touch was the Texas breeze I needed
In that hell I put myself in
You gave me the courage to walk out of that open gate
I will always love you for that.
I claim coward because you couldn’t tell me about her, you stopped being honest with me.
None of that matters. What matters is you are my energy
My every thought.
I see our children
I see our future.
My tears will be the rain that softens the soil of your heart
I want to be at your side
At your table. Under your protection.
I want you to understand me
And love me and need me.
I can’t stop myself from loving you I don’t even know how to begin.
Your smile was all it took and goddamn
You took me THERE
I want to take you there.
I’m sorry for betraying you
I wish I had the courage to tell you this to your face